Sunday, November 28, 2010

Why In The Middle Of The Night

I don't get it. Every time I lie down to go to bed I think of something I need to get up and check on. Just now it was my surgery pack. I don't need it until Friday AM, but I had to know now where it was. I have a tendency  when I clean to put important stuff in a safe place, then I can't find what I did with it!  Of course it was in a safe place, but I moved it back to the kitchen counter where I could readily see it. It has my blood match band in it and they make you go through a long no paid for process if you forget it the day of surgery.

I guess I'm more anxious than I though about this whole thing. I'm going to call the church tomorrow to see if they can make arrangements to bring in some food in so I won't have to cook. That is scary because you don't know what you will get. I just don't know how well I be getting around with a walker post op. The church has been good to help me this year, which I am very grateful.

I have about three days to make sure the house is really clean. I don't want anyone to come in and it be messy. See, worry, worry, worry.  I've got to chill out a little.  I know this was the right thing to do, because the pain and my ability to walk has really been effected.


Just Be Real said...

Wanda, glad you are reaching out to your church dear one. Why in the middle of the night.....Satan works well in darkness....


Anonymous said...

I do that too! It's part of my OCD-- when I get anxious I check and recheck things. Especially my alarms. I check my alarms almost ten times every night. So, yes. I can relate.

I don't blame you for being scared about your surgery. Hospitals are scary. But I know that everything will be better afterwords. You are in such pain, and it will be nice to have some relief, no?

I hope your church is able to help you out. That would be great.

Wishing you well,

Anonymous said...

Hello Wanda. No worries. See, my father who had to live through really bad times through the war as a teen always saied "Wie's kommt, wird's g'fressen." - roughly: I'll munch it as it comes.
You made the right decision regarding your op; you prepare; you do what you can do; and that has to suffice. It is enough. I hope you can find some relaxing sleep.

Tracy said...

Deep is when your mind is most quiet the worrying begins! Give yourself Grace to let things happen without all the vigorous planning and anxiety!
I'll be thinking of you!

Faycin A Croud said...

Anxiety makes us do strange things. In the days before my father's death I found myself doing things that were just plain stupid. Also when I get overly tired my OCD kicks in and I stress about things like whether I locked the door even though I checked it 3 times.
Good luck on your surgery! I am sure things will go fine for you.

MOLLYE said...

All I can do is "Amen" everything everyone has already said, so just know we're all praying and thinking of you so you can just stop your worrying right now! Ya hear? LOL Hugs, Mollye

Shinade said...

Wanda please know you are in my prayers. I can't remember how long it was before my GF was getting around.

I too am so glad you have the church. I wish we lived closer and I would come stay with you!!

I've got you in my thoughts and prayers!!

Big hugs for you!

June_Butterfly said...

I guess an operation will worry ,anyone.Try to take a deep breath,think of other things.Something that would take your mind off it.

Hope the church can do something about getting you food.That would lessen your worries.Cleaning the house might be good distraction.

It was a good decision.And we're all hoping for everything to go well for you,Wanda!(BIG HUG)

RCUBEs said...

Sister, I think it's just normal sometimes to fear about something not known. But rest in the Lord's care. Take care and keeping you in prayers.