Wednesday, November 10, 2010
I am really believing this Lupus flare up is really trying to hold on. The steroids are not helping the pain at all. I may be trying to push it too much. My friend in OK City said she was having the first flare up in two years and she also know someone else that is having a flare. Weather changes and stress are most likely why I am having the problem..
Tomorrow I going to a support group called Compassionate Friends. It is for the parents of those that have lost a child regardless of the age of the child. I'm a little nervous because I'm sure I will cry. I think I need to know what is "normal" after losing a child. I get upset at myself because I still cry so often about losing Chris. I also find that I worry so much about Alice now.I have always been very close to my children, but I don't want to "smother" Alice' I just really love my children. I think I'm still in shock to some degree. I know someday Alice, Chris and I are all going to be together again at Jesus' feet.