Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Ups And Downs In A Day
I fell yesterday and twisted my left knee. (My better one). Boy am I hurting today. When I feel I knocked over a couch table full of pictures. There was glass everywhere. I had to pick up 4 of the 6 new frames. My kids pictures are very important to me.
Last year Chris wanted me to put up a star trek Christmas tree. I decided on snowmen last year because I wanted a big tree and didn't have enough decorations of star trek for the big tree. How I wished I had put up what he wanted! I never dreamed it would be his last Christmas. As hard as it is going to be I'm putting up a three foot star trek tree this year in his honor.
I am really sad today! It is just getting very close to the Holidays and I'm missing my babies. I wonder what Christmas is like in heaven?
On the brighter side I've been talking to Alice today. I always love to hear her voice. We must look for good in each day and that is what I'm trying to do. I just mailed Alice four of Chris' video games. I used the post office this time.
It's getting cold at night. I hate that I have to run my furnace. I have it set at 65 degrees, so I really bundle up in my blanket. Being bundled up somehow makes me feel safer.
I'm setting here looking at a tapestry throw that is over my lap. I admit I was crying about Chris and feeling I've lost everything, including all my friends. God seemed to say to me "See all the dark threads that are woven in the tapestry and yet it is beautiful. Your life has many, many dark threads, but you are a beautiful life to Me and are not alone."