Thursday, November 25, 2010

Cold And Empty

It's so cold and empty in the house. No laughter, no smell of turkey baking , just the dead  silences and knowing things will never be the same again. I hope my sister in law gets here soon, because I feel like I'm dying. I've cried all my make up off. The memories  are over taking me with sadness. I thought I was better prepared for today. The groups had told me anticipation of the day was usually worst the the holiday itself. For me this is wrong. I thought I had this planned out, but the pain is so great. Please hold me up!


RCUBEs said...

Praying for you sister. I'm delighted to hear we both share the same profession. Take care of yourself and may His joy overwhelm you instead!

Faycin A Croud said...

Hi Wanda,
Wish I could be there to give you a hug. My dad went to hospice early this morning. He was in terrible pain. I don't think he'll be going home again. But as painful as this is, it is in the natural order of things.
I know that Chris is looking down on you from Heaven and loves you very much. I wish the two of you could still be together. There's stuff I don't understand but it's not time for theorizing. Love never dies and nor does the soul.
I hope the angels bring you peace today.
Much love from your friend in Colorado.

Anonymous said...

Dear Wanda,

I am sorry today is so sad, I can't imagine the pain you are experiencing but wish you some rest and peace.

Love, Catherine

Sophia said...

Dear Wanda....I too am experiencing the very same thing. Hang in there. Throw open the curtains wide and let the light in. Make a list of things you are thankful for and focus on them. That's what I'm doing. And I KNOW I am very thankful to have you in my life. You've been an inspiration to me of all you've been through and you STILL push through...just like me. LOVE YOU oh so dearly. HUGS!! :)

Anonymous said...

Hello Wanda. What can I say ... it will pass. I hope you have company now and its warm.

Ethereal Highway said...

Oh, sweetie. I wish I could come hug you. I hope it gets better very soon.

Shinade said...

Oh Wanda,
I am so so sorry I missed popping in yesterday. Our weather down here was terrible and it was all I could do to get online at all.

My mother was born on Nov. the 26th and every few years her birthday fell on Thanksgiving. She died 16 years ago almost one month to the day, shy of her 80th birthday.

We were very very close. I loved her and still love her so!!

Even when I am not alone on this holiday and even 16 years later, it is the hardest holiday for me to truly enjoy.

I was alone also and I too have had a few good tears this week.

Of course that can't compare to what you are going through. But,I wanted to let you know you are not alone in dreading some of these holidays!!

I will keep you in my prayers!

Anonymous said...


I'm here for you.

Wishing you well,