Friday, September 10, 2010

Unsure


I'm feeling so unsure of myself the last few days. I'm afraid to make a move right or left. I don't have a plan. Even in the worst of times I have had a plan, but right now I just don't know what to do next. Therapy doesn't seem to be helping. Don't get me wrong I'm very glad my therapist was there for me when Chris died,but I don't seem to be able to put in words what is going on in my mind. I know I'm withdrawing more and more. I can't seem to take care of business. I'm just not functioning. I just don't know what to do. The painting above I make a few years ago. It showed that in the worst of life's storms there was always a light. I just can not find it right now!

4 comments:

Together We Save said...

Sending prayers your way. Look to God he is the light you are seeking.

NOS said...

That's a gorgeous painting and a gorgeous sentiment. I'm sorry you're struggling so much right now. Have you considered telling your therapist that you can't put words to your thoughts and that you feel like you're not functioning? And this may sound stupid, but maybe you could write a list of things you want to accomplish and then do them one by one. It sounds simplistic and it may be so, but it also may be helpful. I'm here in your corner.

Wishing you well,
NOS

Stitching For Serenity said...

What if you don't force yourself to do anything right now. Just try to relax your mind and pray.. a lot! You'll be in my prayers. Hugs. Tammy

Denise said...

Keep looking toward the light, He will not leave you.