Sunday, September 05, 2010
Enough Is Enough
Enough is enough! I have had my share of bad things happen. I've seen sexual abuse destroy both mine and my daughter lives. I believe evil is a very real thing, but I therefore believe that the opposite must also be true. It is a battle. My trust has been severely damaged, but I must not give up. I hurt emotionally and physically almost everyday of my life. We need each other. We need to be able to say I care about you. I miss Chris terribly.I don't know why he was taken so young with so much to live for. I so gladly would have given my life for him. I don't know if I will ever understand why things have been like they have. I do believe with the help of God I can over come. I have to hold on to this. I wish I had never married my ex husband. If I had only know he was a pedophile. I would have saved Alice from a lot of pain. I am glad he is in prison serving 50 years for what he has done. Maybe some think I am wrong and unforgiving. He has hurt so many including my own children. My step dad never served a day for what he did, but he died early. Maybe that was his just reward. Maybe I am bitter. I do not mean to be. I'm just so sad most of the time. I believe people can heal with therapy and God's help. It is sometimes much slower than we want. I have had enough for me and my family. It is time for something good to happen and I'm going to do as much as I can to make that true.