Thursday, September 30, 2010
Some Good And Some Bad
My eyes are improving everyday. I had the second surgery Tuesday and there has already been some improvement in my vision. My sister-in-law paid to fix the steps up to my mobile home because they were unsafe. I am very grateful for the help the church has given me when I could not see to drive. These are some things to be thankful for. Therapy on the other hand is not going that well. I'm trying. I really am. I try to think of the good things, but I still hurt so badly about losing Chris. I believe Jesus is telling me he is safe in His arms, but I miss him so much. I keep thinking I should be farther along than I am. My therapist therapist thinks I need more grief counseling,but I really can't afford it and I don't really think it will help. This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through in my life. The abuse was hard,but this has been worst. I want to stop crying and remember all the joy he brought to my life.