Friday, October 01, 2010

I Read Too Much About Death Today

Three blogs I have read today talked about death of a young person. It seems to me the enemy is working overtime to cause pain in people lives through the death of a love one. I don't understand why the young must die,before they even have a chance to experience life. I do know the pain in losing a child. I am trying so hard to make sense of these things. You see I have always believed God could and does heal. What I can not figure out is why sometimes He does not do this. The verse"All things work out for the good of them that love the Lord". I just don't see how there is any good in a premature death. I know God knows how I feel, but I have never come out and just asked Why? I don't think I will ever know. My heart breaks for the parents of these children. Maybe my faith should be stronger.I don't believe any "religion" has all the answer correct. I seen so much pain and abuse, suffered from mental illness, seen my children suffer from mental illness. Still I have to believe there is a God that loves us, because I believe He talks to me. I have been asked how I can even believe in God with all the bad things that have gone on in my life. It is a choice. I chose to believe there is more to life than just this world. I have been crying like a baby, because I know how hard it has been for me to hold on to this believe and know others that have been so badly hurt that they just can not believe. For those of you that have followed my blog for awhile know I struggle with suicide. self harm, eating disorder, and many other "mental health issues". I'm sure there are those that think I'm crazy as a loony,but I do know that what I have lived and felt gives me a deep feeling of love and concern for others.


RCUBEs said...

It's not easy sister with our finite mind to understand His infinite ways. But He promised someday, all of these will be revealed...May God's comfort continue to cover you and strengthen you. God bless.

Anonymous said...

Wanda, I really admire your faith. I lost faith in god years ago. But I know that for some people religion is really helpful and comforting. I'm glad it offers you some comfort, even if it doesn't "fix" all that is wrong.

And I completely agree-- what you have lived through and what you have felt DOES give you a feeling of love and concern for others. You've exhibited this love on my blog, and for that I am eternally grateful. I just wish you could love yourself like you do others. It's a lot easier said than done, but this is my hope for you.

Wishing you well,

Mike Golch said...

I hate when I read about death as well.I've lose enough as it is. No I do not know what it is like to lose a child,nor will I ever know that pain,nor will I ever know the Joy that comes with children as well.Hugs my friend.

Ethereal Highway said...


It might be that some things have no answers. I don't think you're crazy as a loony. I don't think you're crazy at all.

Cie Cheesemeister said...

I reject religion because I feel it has done a lot more harm than good in this world. I don't mean people like you, but those who use it to be mean spirited and judgmental, in the name of a kind and peaceful individual, yet. But I'm really not trying to get into a discourse about religion--in the end that doesn't matter. I do believe that there is a spiritual component, and as a matter of fact I think it's quite unscientific to completely reject the idea of a spiritual component just because we haven't yet found a physical way to prove it.
I do think that these are very hard times. I think in some ways that we as a collective, not as individuals, have brought this on ourselves by selfishness and mean-spiritedness. People as a whole are so "me, me, me" and caring only about appearances and material goods, and now the payback has come. Unfortunately the innocent also suffer during this negative cycle.
I don't know, I suppose I'm just rambling. I don't really claim to have any true understanding of any of it. But these are my theories.
(I did the name/url thing because I'm logged in under a different screen name and am too lazy to sign out and back in!)

Wanda's Wings said...

I can understand why you would reject religion. It is very hard to believe when there is so much pain inflicted upon each other. I also see people as a whole being very self centered and greedy. I think we need something to hold on to and especially each other no mater the beliefs we hold. Love for one another is the key in my book.

Pia said...

wanda, thank you for praying for lanie's family. i told her about you praying and she was just so thankful. lanie's family are in the philippines.

we may not have all the answers in the world about the questions we have in life, even i, myself would ask God a lot of why and when questions. there are so many things that i don't understand. i am going through something as well and i have been waiting for God to manifest His power over my circumstance for over three years now. maybe it's not that long yet for some people, but it is for me. in spite of it all i continue to trust Him that He knows what He's doing and that He is in control no matter how painful it is for me. i just know that in His perfect time, i will get the answer i've been waiting for.

everything happens for a reason.

God bless you, wanda. with the things you've experienced in life equips you to reach out to others going through what you've gone through with much passion.

you are loved and favored by God. stay blessed! =)

Denise said...

I do not think you are crazy, I think you are precious. I love you.