Wednesday, October 06, 2010

Not Sure Where I'm At


Although I have been crying a lot today I'm not sure where my head is at. I read so many positive uplifting post today that I feel I should be filled with hope. I don't like being the way I am. I want to help others and be a bright spot in their day. I'm trying so hard to get better. It's so hard feeling that maybe this is as good as it gets. I just can't except that. I'm going for a little trip this weekend with a friend. I sometimes think getting away from here is the best medicine for me.Speaking of medicine my primary care doctor put me on a blood pressure pill today. I hate it! Another new medicine. I feel like I takes so many pills right now I rattle. See there is a little humor left in me.

Did anyone watch Dr Phil and Opra shows today? When Dr Phil was talking about young people committing suicide my heart was broken. I can not image the pain those families feel. The Opra show talk about DID and how severe trauma and sexual abuse can affect a person for a life time. Then I saw on the news about the protest at a young military mans funeral and was shocked that it was a church group. I just have to ask is that something Jesus would do? People need to be careful what they do in God's name. I guess I believe in love. Love heals not hate. I think to hurt someone during the most difficult time in their life (funeral of a child) is the most ungodly thing I have ever heard of. I not sure I want to watch anymore TV right now.

On a lighter note I hope all is well with everyone. Talk at you later.

7 comments:

NOS said...

This is a profound post. I completely agree with you-- doing awful, mean things in the name of a god just doesn't make sense. I don't know any religion in which god decreed violence. It's just peoples' interpretation that mangle things up.

I'm glad you're getting away this weekend. It might be nice to get away. Are you going any place special? With a friend?

Stay strong, Wanda.

Wishing you well,
NOS

Wanda's Wings said...

I'm going to Eureka Springs this weekend with my friend that lives out of town. It will be good to see her and just enjoy the change of scenery.

Denise said...

Praying for you to enjoy your weekend, love you.

Jesse Noe Mendez said...

Hi there,

I think we all need to get out of town and change our paradigms once in a while. It has been very healing for me here in Broken Arrow. I feel connected to nature, and a complete change of environment. Not to say that I don't miss the big city. I have always been a city boy. Well man that is...LOL

Just take in the present moments, and try to make an effort to loose yourself in love and in the goodness of your escape. Life is hard enough, but I relate to your words always...

talk at you latter also...

xooxxo

Blooming Psycho said...

Thanks for your kindness. That is a cute picture. I feel like such a jerk for feeling sorry for myself with all you're going through. One of my longtime blog friends was really mean to me and decided he didn't want to be friends with me any more and it really hurts. But it is so childish of me to feel this way when people like you suffer so much worse. I don't know what I'm rattling about. I just wanted to thank you for visiting my blogs even though I was too much of a jerk to pay a return visit recently.

Just Be Real said...

Thinking about you Wanda.... ((((Wanda))))

sarah said...

Here in your corner Wanda. Have a great time being with your friend. YOu need that.