Friday, October 15, 2010

What Is Wrong With Me?

I just don't understand what has happen to the "fighter" I used to be. Depression seems to be winning. Hopelessness is such a heavy burden to carry. I'm so sad and don't see it lifting. My daughter is hurting and I can't help her. That just make things ten times worst. I need to see some glimmer of hope soon. I just want to feel something besides this heavy weight.

9 comments:

RCUBEs said...

Just uttered a prayer for you and your daughter, sister...May you be strong in His mighty power! God bless.

Mike Golch said...

Wanda{{{{HUGS}}}}.I know the feeling. my blogging is suffering as well.Most of the day I just sit and play my computer games.

Denise said...

Asking God to ease your load, as well as your daughter's load. I love you.

NOS said...

Wanda, I'm so sorry you're feeling this right now. You're right-- hopelessness is a heavy burden.

It must be really tough to see your daughter struggling. But I think you ARE helping her by offering her love and support. Maybe that won't fix everything, but it certainly makes a tangible difference.

I'm hopeful for you, Wanda. You are in my thoughts always.

Wishing you well,
NOS

Just Be Real said...

Here listening sweetie.... ((((Wanda))))

Wonderingsoul said...

Dear wanda,
I don't have any answers but I'm right here with you. Very much understanding the tiredness... weariness of it all.
There does come a point where you just feel so tired.

Hang in there. You are so precious.

xxx

Dr. Deb said...

Recovery is not a straight line. Sometimes it circles back and twists around. Know that we are thinking of you, all of us here in the blogosphere.

Raine said...

Wanda it will get better. Perhaps you can't see that right now but it will, it always does. Try to hang onto that thought if you can........ I know hopelessness means just that - no hope- but it is a feeling caused by an illness. I hope you feel better soon ((((((((((((Wanda))))))))

Faycin A Croud said...

There isn't anything wrong with you. You are suffering with a horrible grief. Your reaction is normal, in my opinion.
I don't think there's a lot of hope to go around these days. My situation is nowhere near as heartbreaking as yours, but I don't see too many glimmers of hope. I have no hot water, the heater busted and flooded three rooms, I have rotting, moldy carpet, no money to fix things, no money to move. There is now a fly infestation. And I swear if someone tells me to smile, I will pop them one!
Also, I get paranoid if I use the same screen name too often. Now me there's something wrong with! This is AKA Blooming Psycho/The Cheesemeister.