Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Thoughts

I'm not sure if other people have this trouble or not. There are times, usually when I'm feeling sad or depressed, that I feel like my thoughts are not my own. The thoughts almost seem to "command me"or have a "personility" of their own. I seem to have this problem more when I'm depressed, tired, or over stressed. The type of thoughts I'm talking about are not like flash backs or anything like that. I know I'm here in the present, but almost feel I must compley with the commands.
Over and over again, it's like the thoughts are telling to "put your hand through a glass window" or some other harmful behavior. Sometimes I just lay in my bed crying, praying, and quoting Bible verses. I'm not sure how to explain this any better, but was wondering if anyone else might have had this happen to them. I would welcome any ideas on this subject.

9 comments:

wolfbaby said...

I wish I could help you with this one but it's not something I have ever encountered in myself.... I do know of someone that it has been a problem with and to be honest I don't know how she deals with it if she does. Have you talked with your doc? I'll keep you in my prayers.

Fallen Angels said...

This happens with us all the time Wanda...all the time. We can talk more about it if you would like.

Jo

Raine said...

I had a thought like that once. To run my car out in front of highway traffic so it would just be over. It came suddenly and out of nowhere and was very compelling, but it wasnt a command and it WAS my thought so its not really the same........

mysti said...

Have you been depressed right before you have these thoughts, or maybe something has overwhelmed you? Know I will be thinking and praying for you.

Wanda's Wings said...

WolfBaby: thanks for your concerns. I see my doc next week, but have always been afraid to tell him.

Fallen angel: I really would like to talk about it. I'm afraid to tell my doctor. See I have this fear of being locked up again. It so frustrating.

Raine: thanks. I'm not sure what this is. I just wish I didn't have them.

Mysti: I struggle with depression a lot. I'm very stressed right now, so it is happening more often. I belive prayer does help. Thank you!

jumpinginpuddles said...

understand what you are saying, and maybe its because of something other than you think you can also talk to us if you want. jo can email you our email addy if that helps

Wanda's Wings said...

JIP. This is driving me crazy and it frightens me. I do want to talk. Thanks.

jumpinginpuddles said...

our email addy is bezco*hotmail.com

Dreaming again said...

you ...need to tell Dr. M about this!!!!