Monday, June 28, 2010

Triggers

Just about the time I think I may make it something triggers the fact I have lost my youngest son. I saw something driving home from the store and I started crying so hard I had to pull off the road. The pain for awhile is as great as it was in the hospital when they told me he didn't make it and they were calling the code off. Maybe everyone thinks I should be over this by now. I wonder if I ever will. I'm sorry I talk about him so much, but he takes up so much of my mind. The pain seems unbearable. It hurts so bad. I'm trying and that is all I can do.

7 comments:

IK said...

Wanda, he was your son. I don't see how anyone totally gets over losing a child. You do not have to apologize for talking about him. I like to hear what you have to say, he sounded like a sweet man. You are trying and I am so proud and in awe of you! Take care! *hugs* <3

63mago said...

Exactly, you try and that is what you can do. The old custom of the "Trauerjahr" the year of mourning, was not bad and originated in the empirical knowledge that it takes simply around a year until the worst is "over". This paine and wound is a part of you, as your son is a part of you.

NOS said...

I don't think anyone expects you to be "over this by now." You lost a huge part of your life-- it's only natural to grieve. In fact, it might be worse if you weren't grieving.

But you're right. Trying is all you can ask of yourself. You are strong, Wanda.

Wishing you well,
NOS

Linda said...

for people to tell you that you should be over the lost of your child is crazy. You will never get over that loss & the feeling is normal. He was your son, your child. Will carry him in your heart forever. It is nornal to see something or hear something that will trigger an emotion and its normal, ok and healthy. Keep your chin up!!!!

Ethereal Highway said...

{{{{{{{{Wanda}}}}}}}}

Just Be Real said...

Dear Wanda. ((((Wanda)))

Paola said...

((Wanda))