Thursday, June 17, 2010

Got In Trouble

I saw my doctor today and she yelled at me for losing so much weight this month. I know I not eating right and it becoming a disorder again, but food just makes me sick. I tried to eat a few grapes awhile ago and they made me gag. I'll try again later to eat something, but I have no desire. People had been telling me how good the weight loss looked so I want to eat less. I did have one friend talk to me today about how bad I was looking. She says I have let the grief trigger my eating disorder and I headed for the hospital. I tired of being fat and I just don't care about much these days. I guess as weak as I'm becoming I had better pick up the chewable vitamins like my doctor said. I don't know what I'm going to do.

11 comments:

Mike Golch said...

I'm always getting told to lose weight.I was told that I should weigh no more that 210 lbs.I weight that when I was in high school,fat chance of me getting back to that weight.

Mike Golch said...

I'm always getting told to lose weight.I was told that I should weigh no more that 210 lbs.I weight that when I was in high school,fat chance of me getting back to that weight.

63mago said...

Hello Wanda. Drink water, juices, tea, even a cola. Have an apple, or at least a slice of it ... grapes are a good start, no?
You can not allow your paine to eat you up. Do not allow the paine to rule over you. Can you call a friend, your daughter?

Just Be Real said...

((((Wanda))))

NOS said...

Wanda, I'm sorry. I'm sad to hear that your eating disorder has been triggered-- I really care about you and don't want to see you have to go through what I've been going through for the last five years. Weight loss is not worth it if it means developing an eating disorder; the eating disorder doesn't help anything in the long run, it just ruins lives.

I don't mean to imply that it's easy to turn off. But I really hope you try. You and your life are worth it, trust me.

Wishing you well,
NOS

ghostseeker said...

I hate, hate, hate how obsessed this society is with weight. Whenever I would hear "you've lost weight you look good" I'd think "so I looked like a steaming pile of crap before, eff you very much." It should NOT be about weight. Can't we just say to the other person "you look nice today?"
I also hate going to the doctor because he chews me a new one about NOT losing weight.
People also don't understand--weight loss isn't always healthy. If I do ever lose weight and someone raves about it, I swear I'll tell them "yeah, chemotherapy can do that." It would be obnoxious, but I'd be tempted.

Raine said...

((((((Wanda))))

Raine said...

((((((Wanda))))

sarah said...

(((wanda))))

purple cupcakes said...

i sure hope she didnt yell at you as that would be definately unprofessional

steveroni said...

I will post tonight on my ongoing (15 days now, 10 pounds solid loss)
"no-eating" diet (DIE-ETTE?) It might interest you.