Then we think we have found the "one". The one that will love us in sickness and health, for richer or poorer. We say vows till "death due us part". This kind of commitment I never found. My love life was always broken.
The love I have know most has been my love for my children and a few friends that have stood beside me in thick and thin. This even makes it hard for me to trust God's love. I have to tell myself he love me even more than I love my children. My love for my children has always and will forever be without condition. I hurt when they hurt.
My daughter Alice is going through a real rough time. I can not fix "it" at the current time. This causes me great pain. I only know that I am thankful that God does understand me with all my brokenness.