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Monday, March 21, 2011
I'm stressed out of my ever loving mind and don't have a clue for what any of the answers are for everything that is going on in my life. I see my therapist today. I am going to try and touch on all the confusion and stress in my life as well as go over the eating journal. I can't sleep and am totally out of control. I am afraid I am going to relapse. I'm trying to pray, but it seems like empty words just hitting the ceiling. I just want to drown all my sorrows and I know I can NOT do that. There are just so many questions right now that I don't have answers to. I know this is effecting my health. My blood pressure and heart rate are both running too high. I keep telling myself you can do this, but believing it is another story. The bottom line is I don't trust myself when I am this stressed. On top of everything else I was reading that stress can cause weight gain. I am hoping that my therapy session today helps. I'm am literally at the end of my rope!