Thursday, March 03, 2011

I Can Not Gain Any Weight

The scale is not being my friend right now. I am not doing anything different on my eating, but I seem to be gaining weight, which is freaking me out! I am actually exercising more so I don't get it! I am constipated right now so I thought I would try some prunes before I really freak out and do the laxative thing. Tomorrow I going to really restrict. I had to eat out with a friend today but I think I stayed within my limit. My eating plan is 1200 calories, so maybe just for a few days I cut that in half. I just can NOT gain back any of the weight I have lost! "Y" says I am too obsessed about my weight right now, but I just can not help it. With a diagnosed ED (307.50) I really should try it,  I'm really scared about gaining any weight now. I'm going to exercise again now.I am exercising past the point of severe pain. I am really afraid, but it all I can think of!

6 comments:

RCUBEs said...

It all comes down to portion control and that's our problem here, the servings are always more than what we are supposed to eat. May His strength be yours. Take care sister.

NOS said...

Wanda, running on 600 calories will just make your body want to store calories and fat-- that's putting yourself in starvation mode. And your metabolism will slow. I know, I know, I should talk. But please think about how the decision you make tomorrow will affect your recovery from all that you are dealing with right now. (((Wanda)))

Wishing you well,
NOS

Tracy said...

Wanda,
It's all about control in your life. Food is something you can control as well as the exercise, restriction, etc...
Do what you need to do to take good care of yourself. Thinking of you!

Bluebird49 said...

I hope you won't weigh everyday, Honey. It doesn't help....I pray that you can have peace about this.

Dolly the Doll Mistress said...

Muscle weighs more than fat. Please try not to fall into the disordered eating trap. Health is more important than weight. When I starved myself down to 108 pounds my hair started falling out and my skin was brittle.

sarah said...

I've learned it's not about weight....or the scale but what's going on inside. Take gentle care Wanda.....stay strong...