Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Hurting So Badly


I'm hurting so badly, I'm not sure I'll ever recover. I can not even begin to express the pain I feel from having lost Chris. Everything is a reminder. His room, his clothes, missing his laugh, and even missing when he was upset. I loved him so much. I've been through a lot in my life, but a love for a child is one of the greatest loves there is. I have to believe he is with Jesus and happy. Oh, the hole in my life. He was getting better over his anxiety disorder. He actually socialized a little. He was so smart. The world will be a less of a place without him. I wish I could understand why he was taken. Oh God why was his life cut so short? Why? I don't think the hole in my heart can be filled. I loved you so much Chris!

12 comments:

Mike Golch said...

I know that you heart is hurting I cannot even imangine how devestating it is to loose a child.I still do not know what is worse not having a child in you life at all or having to burying child.

Anonymous said...

Hi Wanda,



Thank you for your email.



I’m sorry to hear you’ve been going through such a difficult time, and my thoughts and prayers go out to you.



I hope you are able to find things in life that inspire you and give you courage and hope.



Chris loved you and would want you to find happiness despite all the difficulty you’ve endured.



Take care of yourself. God bless,



Ken

Catherine said...

Wanda,

I am so sorry you are in so much pain. I can't imagine how it must feel to have lost a child. We are here listening and on your side.

Love, Catherine

Sophia said...

Wanda, my heart continues to ache for you. I wish there was something I could do for you. Please hang in there. I know grief is very hard to deal with on top of what you've already been through, but YOU CAN make it. Keep pressing through. I believe in you. Love you and care for you lot!!

Hugs!!

Ethereal Highway said...

Chris was such a fine son. Of course you miss him.

{{{{{{{{Wanda}}}}}}}}

Just Be Real/God Whispers In The Wind said...

Here with you dear one. ((((Wanda))))

sarah said...

I can't imagine what it feels like to lose a child...my heart goes out to you....praying for strength for you..praying for His gentle touch to give you the courage to go on....Sarah

Prayer Girl said...

I wrote this comment last night, but lost my internet connection before I could post it. I saved it. Here it is:

Dearest Wanda,
I sponsor a woman in AA and Al-Anon who lost her son. He was a young man. She was totally devastated. He's been gone more than a year and a half. She did not think she would survive. She has survived. Somehow with the help of many friends and intervention from "on high" she has managed to move out of the constant crippling grief. She is actually able to enjoy her life today. It was very slow and she thought it would not happen. Of course, there are still times she ends up "back there" in the pain. BUT, where there is life and breath there is hope. I pray for your recovery. Grieving cannot be quickened. It takes whatever length of time it takes, but believe me when I say I believe the day will come when you will not feel as you do today.

I pray for you.
PG

Wendy Love said...

Wanda,
Hugs and prayers to....

Raine said...

(((((((((Wanda))))))))))))

Kahless said...

I cant imagine the pain you are feeling, though I felt some of your pain reading this post. I am so sorry for the loss of your boy.

xx.

Mike Golch said...

anda,thank you for stopping by my blog.I hope that you had a good earth Date,and A great day tomarrow.