On top of every thing else I'm not sleeping. I am getting really cranky. I don't know if my meds are messed up or if I have been under to much stress. I really feel like I am losing my mind. I want to hurt my self. I parked in ER for a hour last night thinking about going in and yelling at them that they killed my son. I keep wondering if they had admitted him the first time (2 days earlier) and started his treatment sooner,if he would have lived. I just can not get that out of my mind. I've left a message for my therapist to please call me back, but I don't think she got the message. NOT DOING WELL!