Tuesday, April 27, 2010

ECT


I have my last treatment tomorrow. I believe I am less depressed, but I still cry everyday for Chris. I believe he is in Heaven, so my heart should be glad for him. I'm jealous! I want to be with him, but every time I pray, God says "Not yet". I'm still not sure why his life was cut so short. I have Grief Class tonight. I hope I can find the class. My memory isn't as good since starting the ECT.

10 comments:

Prayer Girl said...

I pray in thanksgiving that the ECT is helping you - even if it is just a little bit. That is a good thing.

God blesses your Chris. God will help you.

PG

sarah said...

I think you're doing amazing considering everything you've had to deal with. My heart goes out to you. Whatever you do...take gentle care of yourself...I think anyone would be fragile in your situation. Hugs. Sarah

Just Be Real said...

Dear one, let those tears come. ((((Wanda))))

Dr. Deb said...

ECT can work wonders, but yes, there can be memory issues. Hopefully you won't the forgetfulness too negative. Sending you my thoughts.

Andrea said...

Blessings, hugs, and prayers,
andrea

Wendy Love said...

Wanda,
I am so glad for you that you feel that you may be a little less depressed. It is hard to tell the difference between grief and depression. I am sure that grief class will be of some comfort to you at this stage. Nothing can take away our grief, but comfort can be found. I am praying for your comfort and that you will be able to find your way to the class!

Catherine said...

I'm glad you are feeling a little difference from the ECT. You are going through so much right now and it is ok to cry, to miss your son and to feel jealous. These are natural emotions that come with trauma. I hope your grief class goes well and that you can find some people who may understand some of what you are going through.

Love, Catherine

Colleen said...

Blessings and hugs.

NOS said...

I can definitely relate to your experience, as I just went through ECT as well. But I'm glad you've made the commitment to stick around for a while longer-- I know I would miss your presence.

Wishing you well,
NOS

Jingle said...

best wishes!

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