Friday, July 15, 2011

Not In A Good Place

I'm not in a very good space right now. I am still not sleeping enough, however I am becoming very cranky.I not sure if the heat of over 100 degrees for several weeks is part of the problem or not, I am also obsessing with exercise right now. I'm going to the gym 2-3 times per day. Grant it my endurance only allows me to work out 45 minutes to 1 hour at a time.

I hate when I'm this grumpy. I want to see some progress for all the work I'm doing. I don't understand why I can not do stuff in moderation. Everything I do, I do it to the excess. Maybe I will try listening to some music or something to cool my jets.  I know my train of thought is all over the place.

Again I am so thankful that I am not in the hospital, but my psychiatrist is not please with my mood and behavior. I am beginning to think I am in a mixed episode right now, because I do feel some depression again

On another note is anyone else concerned about what the government is doing? If SS checks are delayed or cut by a large amount my family will be hit hard, as will many other elderly and disabled persons. The government needs  to stop playing games and work on an agreement.

7 comments:

Jesse said...

Easy Does It

First Things First

Let go and Let GOD

I love you,

Jesse

Just Be Real said...

Wanda I am sorry for your struggles. Here listening.....

Chatty Crone said...

I have been worried about the government for 3 years now.

Worried about you too.

Maybe the hospital would be a good thing?

Bobbi said...

Don't get me started on the government!
I hope you can sleep better. Keep a positive attitude, and your eyes on Him!! You can do it!! And, you're allowed to be cranky once in a while. We all are... ((HUGS))

63mago said...

Hello Wanda,
all that gym and excercise must make you tired! The grumyness will go away. I do not know how your foot is doing, but can you do some boxing? It's great for getting things out.

NOS said...

I understand your struggles about doing things in moderation (story of my life), but I think it would be worthwhile to work with your doctor or therapist to try and help you find some shades of grey between the black and white.

Here supporting you.

Wishing you well,
NOS

Faycin A Croud said...

The heat does make it hard to sleep. I've been having problems with it too. Like many of the others, I too am worried about the Gubbermint. Things are not headed in a good direction.