Thursday, May 17, 2007

A Little Better


Well at least I've been able to get out of bed. I'm so tired of being depressed and anxious. I'm afraid to admit to my doc and T how depressed I really am, because I don't want back in the hospital. I was able to make it to work today, but it took everything I had to do it. I won't be alone this weekend, but I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I'm not sure I can handle the stress of trying to be around a draining person. Maybe there is some light at the end of the tunnel. I just have to remember these feeling will go away. Even my faith is shaky now. I just feel the need for someone to take care of me. Isn't that the stupidest thought you have ever heard. A grown woman wanting someone to just take care of things for a little bit. I guess I'm improving because I'm crying now. I want to thank my friends for their support. I haven't felt like going to other blogs and I'm sorry. I'm better than yesterday, so maybe tomorrow will be better. I'm sorry I'm so sad right now. Thanks for understanding.

13 comments:

wolfbaby said...

ahh honey don't worry bout other blogs.. and no it dosn't sound crazy to want someone to just take care of you and everything... hugs ok... and take care..

keepers said...

Take your time, time does heal, and know that there are a whole lot of people out here rooting for you, thinking of you, caring about you.

peace and blessings

keepers

Raine said...

its not stupid at all. I feel that way sometimes. Sometimes I feel that way so strongly I WANT to go back to the hospital so they can take care of everything for a while and I wont have to. Just for a little while....... I totally get it hun.

Jade said...

Good to hear that things are getting a little better. Just know that we are here cheering you on.

Cheesemeister said...

It's not stupid to need help from others. Sometimes it's so hard to find though.
Best wishes.

Marj aka Thriver said...

You don't have to say you're sorry. I'm just sorry you're going through such a rough time right now. And I totally understand about wanting someone to take care of you/things for a while. Doesn't seem stupid to me at all. Some of us weren't taken care of at all in any kind of healthy nurturing way as kids, so of course we'd crave that now. I care about you and I'm thinking of you, sending healing vibes and prayers your way. (((((Wanda))))) safe hugs.

jumpinginpuddles said...

just stay as safe as you can ok :)

Dreaming again said...

HELLO my dear ....

how are you tonight? Totally exhausted after my weird children?

Raine said...

Hey- when did you go back to work?

survivor said...

hang in there, I understand what you're saying... sending you strength

MYSTI said...

I am very sorry that things are so sad for you. please do not worry about the other blogs, i have been in the same place as you have been. Know that I understand, and do care.

Hugs my blogger friend,
Mysti

Ani Star said...

Hey, I'm Ani. I wanted to let you know that I've added a link to your site onto the side bar of my own. As a survivor I'm trying to connect with as many other survivors as I can, such as yourself. My main blog is at http://withdissonance.net if you want to check it out. If its okay with you, could I add a link to your blog there also? If you'd like you can add a link to either of my blogs here. Thanks so much.

~ Ani

Wanda's Wings said...

Raine,
I work one day a week to help make ends meet. I can't do more than that, but it helps some with the money from my disability.