Explaination

Dr M explained to me today that what I was feeling was largely do to coming down from an extreme mania. My body and my mind need time to "recover". Extra sleep was not a bad thing,  He said that my bipolar disorder was on the more extreme end and would require medication for the rest of my life. That it doesn't improve with age and that left untreated would become worst. I had the idea that it would improve by it self with age. He ask me where I got that idea from.  He wanted to make sure I keep on the higher dose of Abilify  He said lowering the dose could cause me to rebound into mania or depression. So I guess I will try to chill out and keep working the program.  He continued the same dosage of mood stabilizers and antidepressant today and want to see me in two weeks.  I see my therapist tomorrow. I guess I share my "dark" feelings for her.  I guess this is my "normal".  I was hoping for better. Will see you all later and will try to make Lemon-aid out of my life.