Sunday, January 23, 2011


I need rest. I have not been sleeping. My mind won't shut down. I'm filled with sadness and keep living with a ray of hope from a Bible verse. " All things work together for good to them that love the Lord."  I wish my faith was stronger. So much has happen that brings me down. I feel so much pain some days I don't think I can make it. I wonder what am I suppose to be doing. I search for a meaning of life. What is my purpose? I love people deeply but feel so helpless in what I can do. My heart is tender or maybe just raw. I should be stronger. I have lived through so much. I want to encourage others, but have difficulty encouraging myself. I won't and can't give up no mater how dark the skies. I am a winner no matter what continues to fall my way. "I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me." I just have to take it one day at a time.


Tracy said...

Yes, that is such a true sentiment and keep praying about your situation because it will get better. However, I've been there enough to know that it does't happen overnight NOR does it take away the current pain you are suffering.
Know we are here for you!

RCUBEs said...

May our prayers help to lighten the load in your heart sister. Take care and God bless and protect you.

Just me said...

Hi Wanda, thanks for your comment on my blog, and for your prayers!

You've picked out two of my favourite Bible verses right there! Another one I love is Isaiah 43:2 -
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.

I also wish my faith was stronger, but I've only just looked at your blog and already I believe that your faith IS so strong, because you have been through so much yet you still trust in God.

I also believe that you sharing your story here IS a way for you to encourage others. Never underestimate the power of shared experience - it can go such a long way for people to know they are not alone.

You're totally right - one day at a time.

Faycin A Croud said...

I am glad you have these words of wisdom to help comfort you. One thing that I always hated about religion is the way people are berated for not having "stronger faith." I don't think this is very helpful at all and tends to make good people feel like they are not good enough.

Angela said...

You encourage me all of the time. I'm here for you. I know that you have so many gifts to share with this world. I'm glad to hear you say that you won't give up. I hope that you can get some rest. Sending all my love and hugs<3

NOS said...

One day at a time is wise. I'm sorry you're hurting so much right now. If there's anything I can do to lessen the pain I would gladly do it. I truly care about you and want to see you well.

Wishing you well,

Bluebird49 said...

Rest. Trust right now, that no matter that your emotions are all over the place---you have the Spirit of God in you. You may doubt sometimes that it is there, because we cannot trust our feelings, especially people like you and me. People with emotional problems, depression, anxiety, manic/depression or whatever emotional problem we suffer---remember we can't trust our emotions. The Father sent us a message in the Gospel of John.

You remember it--I know you do--

in Chapter 3. For God so loved the world...."

You know it, know the rest of it. "that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever (Not just SOME people but WHOSOEVER!) believeth in Him shall not perish (NOT EVER) but have everlasting life!"

(THAT IS FOREVER--not just “ Well, I had it yesterday when I was feeling ‘up’, but then, today, He has taken it away!) It's still there, because although we change like the weather, HE will never change--HE keeps HIS promises .

YOU are whosoever, and I am, too. Wanda---I KNOW you know it in your heart!

I pray you get some rest.

Just Be Real said...

I hear you Wanda. You know that. ((((Wanda))))