Monday, January 17, 2011
Is It True?
Is it really true what doesn't kill you make you stronger? I am so frustrated. The cost of my mental health care has become more than I can afford. I know I have so many issues, PTSD, eating disorder, bipolar, and still in deep grief. There are days like today I just don't think I can make it. I keep think about the after life and that it would have to be better than this. I know how dangerous my thinking is right now, so I'm trying to keep from thinking so much. The urges to hurt myself or so strong, but I'm fighting hard not to give in to them. It terrible to be afraid of your own mind. I'm trying so hard not to give in these intrusive thought. I guess that is why I keep calling people. Of course I can tell them what I'm writing here. I hate it when my thinking is all messed up and I guess that is why I'm reaching out on this blog. I guess it's true that "We all need someone to lean on".