Saturday, January 29, 2011

Not In Good Shape.

I'm not in very good shape despite trying to control the situation. I'm manic and grieving big time. I'm back home because the weather is suppose to turn nasty. I really think my mania was starting to bother Y. She couldn't relate to not being able to sit still for even 5 minutes. I kept pacing and moving all over the place. I was in constant pain form the movement but could not stop myself. When I tried to sleep I would have horrible nightmares.I cried  myself to sleep every night.Then I was lucky if I got 2-3 hours sleep.I'm being to think there is nothing anyone can do to help me.Tonight I will run the vacuum cleaner and maybe do some laundry. My kitty cat knocked down the curtains in my computer I already put those back up. How can such a sweet looking thing cause so much trouble?  I just hope I can hang on until I see my psychiatrist on the eight!


Andrea said...

Oh NO! I am sooo sorry! Know I and many others are praying for you! HE will give you the strength to get through! Hang in there!
Blessings and prayers,

Denise said...

I love you, you are very much in my prayers.

Faycin A Croud said...

Wanda, the eighth is too far away given the symptoms you're describing. Does your therapy office have an on-call doctor? Try to get hold of your therapist. If you can't, call your primary care physician or even your medication doctor and see if they can point you in the right direction. These symptoms are evidently very uncomfortable and I am concerned for your health. Please don't try to hold out for fear of "bothering" someone--which is what I'd do.
Are you on Medicaid or Medicare? If this continues you might want to consider going to an urgent care clinic. I don't really know the ins and outs of medicare and I know costs are a huge concern. But your health is too.
Much love. I can only hope for solace for you. You have been so kind to me. I wish I could do more.

RCUBEs said...

"He gives power to the weak. He increases the strength of him who has no might." - Isa.40:29

Praying it over you sister. Take care and God bless and keep you.

Anonymous said...

Oh no, Wanda, I'm sorry. I've never been manic, but I can only imagine how uncomfortable that would be. And Y is a good friend to you-- I'm sure she understands and is not bothered like you think she is.

If you need to, please call your psychiatrist before the eighth. It's not too far away, but I know how it can seem to be ages.

You're in my thoughts.

Wishing you well,

MOLLYE said...

Wanda, run don't walk to the nearest hospital and get yourself admitted. It is not rational to wait until the 8th.