Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Saw My Therapist Today

Saw my therapist today and she ask me how much weight I had lost. I told her I didn't know even thought I'm weighing 2-3 times per day. Right now I feel I don't have control of much in my life, so I might as well control what I eat. Besides I don't know if you eat in heaven and I feel guilty eating without Chris.
I also got a call from my ex-husband's sister wanting to meet for lunch. That was very strange since I haven't seen her in years. It went okay. Strange but okay. For those of you that don't know I picked a real bad one. He is serving 50 years for being a pedophile. After being molested myself you would have thought I would have seen the signs, but I didn't. Thank God we were all ready divorced when he went to trial.
I keep making it through may things. I'm not giving up yet.


Just Be Real/God Whispers In The Wind said...

Wanda, you have many of us that will support you dear. No you have not give up. You are strong. We can amaze ourselves at times just how strong we are. I keep on amazing myself. Hang on tight dear one.


Andrea said...

Praising GOD you are not giving up. You are not alone in picking bad one's. My first husband was a bad one, too!!
As for eating in heaven...I somehow has this vision of heavenly feasts with Jesus...the best of the best food, etc.
Hugs, blessings, and lots of prayers,

Dreaming again said...

Eat ...Chris is enjoying the presence of Christ .. and if they don't eat in heaven then why does the Bible talk about the Feast of the Lamb that we'll all partake in.

Heaven is full of all good things ...
eat hon, take care of yourself so you can show Chris how much he mattered.

Sophia said...

Wanda, my heart aches for you tonight, sitting here reading and learning more about you and your life story. I'm sorry you have been dealt alot to deal with. I have too, and don't understand it at all.

All I know is to dig deep down inside and find every ounce of strength within you and use that to fight and persevere forward in your life.

Love you. Believing in you!

Ethereal Highway said...

I am so glad you are not giving up. Chris would not want you to give up. You are so precious, Wanda.

(I picked a real bad loser once, too. He would be in prison for the same thing if he had not fled the police and managed to elude the FBI all these years. it's not your fault, Wanda. I hope you are not blaming yourself. He is the criminal, certainly not you. We can't always see. Sometimes our background makes us vulnerable.)

Mary said...

One day at a time.
God's mercies are new each day!!!
You are not alone!!!!

Gaia said...

Dear Wanda, have not blogged for some time, but coming by to see how you have been and to send my prayers and good wishes. Stay Strong, don't give up. Sometimes its all in our head, making a mess of things. i am not at peace too, so I too am striving. take care. ((Hugs))