Tuesday, March 16, 2010

I'm So Unhappy

I'm so unhappy I feel like I'm dying. I don't know if I can do this. I talked with my therapist today and I think I 'm in worst shape than ever. I just want the pain to stop.


Blooming Psycho said...

I love you, Wanda. I wish I could ease your pain. Wishing for solace for you.

Wonderingsoul said...

"I just want the pain to stop".
Hearing your pain and hearing the depths of your tiredness.

I'm not surprised if you feel in worse shape than ever.
You probably ARE after all you have been through in the last 6 weeks ( ON TOP of all the other things you are trying to heal from).

I don't know how it is for you Wanda, but the feeling like you're dying thing? I get that so badly when I am suffering from fairly severe depression...
I suspect grief could make you feel pretty much the same.

Thinking of you and hearing you.

Keep shouting out here.


Catherine said...

Oh Wanda I am so sorry you are going through so much pain. Sending you love.


Mike Golch said...

Wanda,I'm sorry that you are suffering,JUST REMBEMER YOU ARE NOT ALONE.There are a lot of us that care about you as we care about each other.I had a bad bout of depression reciently myself.I told my psyce doctor and she reminded me of what would she,my wife and family and friends would do with out me,They would be hurting really bad.Right now the best thing I can do is give you one of the big bear hugs that I pass out both in person and online,HANG IN THERE YOU ARE WORTH IT.

Steve E said...

ADVICE: You keep blogging this Wanda, as long as it takes. Peeps will be here to support you through this...
Love and PEACE!

Andrea said...

Know that I am praying for you...I don't have answers and my words probably don't help...but I do care!
Sending hugs and lots of prayers,

Mary said...

Wanda I do not believe there is anything harder to experience than the loss of a child. I know your heart is broken. I also know you know God is with you, and will heal your heart in time. You will always carry the scars, but it will get better.

Keep writing!

Praying that today you experience in greater measure God's love and comfort.


Prayer Girl said...

The pain of loss is such a uniquely personal experience - in how it is felt, how long it lasts, the process, everything.

You have the prayers of all of us who have come to know you through our blogs. We are powerless to really help, but God has all power, may He help you now.


Just Be Real/God Whispers In The Wind said...

Wanda, I can just give out hugs these days, but I am here listening.... ((((Wanda))))

Paula said...

Dear one, lik Wonderingsoul said, after what you have been through, you are in a worse state then before. Wish I coudl ease your pain.

Anonymous said...

Wanda, I have felt and currently feel the same way. All I know is that feelings are not decisions.

When I feel like ending it all I'm reminded of the Matrix and how everything is an illusion.

The idea of you not being here is wrong - it's just an ilusion and one which you should ignore.

You are worth more here on earth than anywhere else. Stay with us.