Thursday, April 07, 2011

Feeling Stronger Today

I haven't been feeling well recently, but today I'm feeling a bit better. I have already dusted and  prepared a casserole for dinner . I'm going to run the  vacuum cleaner when I'm finished here and mop the kitchen. I have to be careful that I don't over do it because with the autoimmune disease it can jump up and get you down for days. House work is not my favorite thing to do but is a necessary evil. lol.

Well I finished that and was find until I went into Chris' room. I lost it big time. I miss him so much. I miss his laugh, his beautiful smile, him calling me "Little Mama".I miss it all. I had to fill out some legal papers the other day and the lady behind the desk said "He in a better place now."  I wanted to reach over the desk and chock her!  I believe my baby is in heaven, but I still want him here with me. I know it has been over a year, but the pain is still very intense. I'm not sure time heals all wounds. I love you Chris!


Mollye said...

Hi Chickie, You sound like me with the housework. My daughter and I were grocery shopping together last week and when we came to the cleaning supplies aisle, she asked if I needed anything on that aisle and I replied "nah, I don't do that stuff anymore". Hey you dust and dust and it happens all over I'm just sayin. Love you sister girl, Mollye

Andrea said...

So glad you are feeling better. I am praying for you! I know it is tough. Hang in there and keep your focus on HIM who loves you most!

Hugs, andrea

Chatty Crone said...

I'm glad you found Mollye! sandie

NOS said...

Good for you for getting done what you needed to get done! I hope that you were able to clean in moderation so that your autoimmune disease didn't flare up.

I think that lady behind the desk was WAY out of line. Firstly, she shouldn't be pushing her beliefs on someone. Secondly, she doesn't know how you feel about it and she's making the assumption that you cope in a similar way to her. I mean, maybe you do and maybe you don't, but I think it was inappropriate of her to assume that you do.


Wishing you well,

Bluebird49 said...

I know--I've lost a daughter, and now Mama. It's okay to feel sad--there are no time limits on grief. There are so many things I need to do--I can't even think. Baby steps, I steps and a lot of prayer.