"It is frequently said that the grief of bereaved parents is the most intense grief known. When a child dies, parents feel that a part of them has died, that a vital and core part of them has been ripped away. Bereaved parents indeed do feel that the death of their child is "the ultimate deprivation.Bereaved parents continue to be parents of the child who died. They will always feel the empty place in their hearts caused by the child's death; they were, and always will be, the loving father and mother of that child. Yet, these parents have to accept that they will never be able to live their lives with or share their love openly with the child. So they must find ways to hold on to the memories."
"Grieving parents are survivors"
I feel I should be stronger than I am. It's been one year now and it feels like it happened yesterday. Not everyday but some days. I have survived so much in my life. There was sexual and physical abuse. Suicide of a family member. Being abandoned by my mother. All these things seem small in comparison to the loss of Chris. Yes I still talk to him in my spirit. His beautiful smile tells me I have to keep going and I believe I will join him someday.
I love you baby!