Monday, February 21, 2011

I Am Competent, Capable, and Lovable


"I am competent, capable, and lovable" is what I am suppose to tell myself several times a day. The hardest part is the lovable. I will put the saying up on my computer that is one place I go daily. Seems like when your own Mother rejected you it hard to think that anyone can really love you. My therapist wants to see me weekly for awhile. All I can see is $$$$$$$$ that I don't have.  I know I need extensive treatment and the depression is bad right now. Abuse and abandonment sure can put some deep deep scars on someone.

Remember this is eating disorder awareness week and stand by those that struggle with this terrible disease. 

7 comments:

Dreaming again said...

you ARE competent capable and lovable ...

I love you ...heard RS say it to you as well ..

SF and her family loves you ...

D & L love you

shall I keep going?
Don't forget Benjamin, Samuel and Don ... they love you too ..

when are you scheduled to go back? I'm next week .. I think at 3, but it may be 2 ... it was soooo good to see your face today!

Jesse N.M. said...

Hi,

I admire your commitment to your own self. I know I spent many months in that chair with mine. It took me a very long time to boil it down to: Deeply and completely accepting myself without judgement.

You are love,
Jesse

Faycin A Croud said...

The money--that's why I don't go to a therapist either, haven't for years.
I'm not in a good place right now emotionally so I wouldn't be able to tell myself I was any of the above because I sure don't feel it. I think you are though and I hope it can ring true at least a little for you.

Just me said...

You ARE competent, capable, and lovable.

And you. are. loved.

Huge hugs xxx

Just Be Real said...

Those words are hard for me to say as well Wanda. Here listening....

rcubes said...

There's power in what we say but to say the Truth is even more awesome! May the love of God remind you how much you are truly loved and accepted! God bless you sister.

Tracy said...

Wanda,
Yeah, I'm all too familiar with eating disorders; the wave of my life in one form or another as you know.

Well, here is another time for you to read what your therapist asked...'You are competent, capable, AND loveable!' now repeat after me....you are competent, capable and loveable!!!!!