Thursday, December 02, 2010

Tomorrow Is The Day

I been busy already this morning. I'm trying to make the house look OK in case some people drop by post op. I've been to Walmart and stocked up on soup and such. Things that would be easy for me to fix on my new and I'm sure painful knee. I picked up a size "too big" sweat pants to wear home since I will most likely have a large dressing on my knee. The trick is not to grow into the pants! I've worked too hard to keep the weight I lost off. I need to do my first "scrub" with antibacterial soap on my knee this morning, then a second one this evening.

 Yesterday was one of those "bad" days. I was missing Chris so much I cried most of the day. I know it sound stupid, but when I'm like that I hold the shirt he wore in the last picture I have of him. Most of his clothes I gave to Good Will, but I kept a few things that meant a lot to me. I still talk to him all the time. I'm working on a scape book about his life. I can now remember some of the good times we had together. For awhile all I thought  was watching the monitor in ICU as he deteriorated. He was a great Son! All a mother could ever hope for.

I pretty well set up for Christmas. I mailed Alice's present to her already. She couldn't wait to Christmas. She immediately opened the wrapped packages. She is just like a happy child in that aspect of her life. I had so hoped they could come down for Christmas. We are now shooting for our Birthday Days which is August the 7th. Yes she was my birthday baby. Christmas cards are sent out too.

I really need to get busy and get this last minute "stuff" done. I will update my blog with my surgery time when I find out this afternoon. I'm so nervous, but I getting this done while I have "decent" insurance. Next year my insurance cost more and pays less. Thank you so much! It may snow over the weekend or Monday. I guess winter is here!

Check in at OR is at 8:15: Surgery to follow at 9:30 AM.  I am the second case.


Tracy said...

I am so glad that today is a better day! Hang in there and take one day, one moment, or one step at a time!
I'm thinking of you and holding you in my prayers!

RCUBEs said...

May you feel His presence sister...Keeping you in prayers. God bless.

Anonymous said...

I knock on wood ... done. Here it's in the middle of the night. I have no idea where you are (and no need to tell me), somewhere in America, but it's most probably evening over at your place. I hope you can sleep. And the transport is prepared. Yes, surely.
You re-assure yourself - all is checked. God bless. Follow the instructions afterwards, you'll see that it works.
You do this, you are the master, and the necessary piece of luck is on your side, nothing is against. Here we go.

Anonymous said...

I think you are being very wise about preparing for surgery tomorrow-- you're trying to make things as easy as you can, and that's very smart.

I'm sorry yesterday was so hard. I know I've said this before, but I can't imagine what you have gone through this year. You were and still are a fabulous mother.

Good luck tomorrow. I'll be thinking of you!

Wishing you well,

June_Butterfly said...

I think every mother would feel how you feel now,Wanda!Festive seasons always bring back memories of loved ones lost!Be brave,friend!

Hope everything goes well with the operation.And I'm glad Alice was real happy about her presents.

Take care,Wanda!(HUGS)

Faycin A Croud said...

Here to wish you well. I'm sure everything will be just fine! I don't think you're stupid at all for holding onto Chris' shirt. My dad had a couple little stuffed animals towards the end of his life--he was very demented and childlike at the end. My mother was going to have them cremated with him but I couldn't bear to do that so they are now with me.