Wednesday, December 01, 2010
I hate to admit it, but every since I lost Chris I am terrified of being in the hospital. I can't believe how scared I am. I know I really need this surgery, but I am so tempted to back out. I was a nurse for a long time and to be so afraid of the hospital is very illogical. I not afraid of the pain, because I live with so much pain anyway. It's the idea of trusting my life to someone else. I know attitude can have an impact on how you do, so I've got to pull myself together. It is just the whole trust issue. I just am not a trusting person I guess. What is wrong with me any way???? I just be fine. They do these surgery all the time. Piece of cake right?