Monday, December 13, 2010

Isolation

I'm feeling so isolated right now. Not being able to drive or even carry out my own trash is getting to me.  I find myself just breaking into tears. I don't like being "out of control" or at some bodies mercy. I'm really afraid the doctor is not going to release me to drive when I see him on Thursday. My leg seems weaker than I think it should be at this point. I know I'm really depressed right now and am finding it hard to fight the intrusive thoughts I've been having. I am seeing at least one person a day, but this feeling of being trapped is eating away at me. I thought I would be in a rehab center for at least a week post op and not alone . That is what I was told anyway. I don't like the thoughts that are running through my head. Tomorrow will be better I'm sure.

6 comments:

NOS said...

I'm so sorry you're feeling so badly right now. I'm glad you're at least seeing one person a day and that there are people in your life that you can depend on. That's definitely significant.

Stay safe, Wanda. I'm thinking of you.

Wishing you well,
NOS

June_Butterfly said...

Guess it's really hard when your body doesn't allow you to move the way you want.I'm so glad that at least you were able to have someone to talk,everyday.

Hope that things brighten up for you.Take Care!

Jesse N.M. said...

Hi there,

just let the thoughts fade...

let them come into your presence, and then dismiss them from your mind...

ask GOD to take away the sour taste from your mind...

This TOO Shall pass...

this too shall pass...

love,

Jesse

Faycin A Croud said...

I don't do well with being alone either. I think it's good that you're able to see someone every day. Loneliness sucks.

sarah said...

praying for you Wanda...that somehow...things change for the better. Stay safe okay

63mago said...

This too shall pass.