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Monday, December 13, 2010
I'm feeling so isolated right now. Not being able to drive or even carry out my own trash is getting to me. I find myself just breaking into tears. I don't like being "out of control" or at some bodies mercy. I'm really afraid the doctor is not going to release me to drive when I see him on Thursday. My leg seems weaker than I think it should be at this point. I know I'm really depressed right now and am finding it hard to fight the intrusive thoughts I've been having. I am seeing at least one person a day, but this feeling of being trapped is eating away at me. I thought I would be in a rehab center for at least a week post op and not alone . That is what I was told anyway. I don't like the thoughts that are running through my head. Tomorrow will be better I'm sure.