Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Crying

i hate this, I just cryin like a baby, gee wheez that is so stupid and i am not stupid. where are all the brave people not here tonight, Alone and sad, wanting to hurt myself. my stupid head won't shut up. i don't want ta be alone. i don't want ta hurt anymore, why can't someone else decide what's the right thing to do?? I just want someone ta hold me and let me know i am safe. or maybe break something and watch it shatter like me, i don't want to cry any more. Big girl don't cry-just babies cry not big girl, stop stop stop. can not see any more i go to bed with my bear.

8 comments:

Me, Not You said...

(((((((((((hugs))))))))))

I wish I had some words for you too.
I'll pray for you right now, before even going back to bed.

((((((hugs)))))))

Dreaming again said...

You are brave Ms Wanderful.

You can make the decisions ... but you won't have to make them alone, you'll make them with wise counsel ..and in time.

You know girl ... my phone rings 24 hours a day!!!!

Don't go through this alone again!!

Medicoglia, RN said...

((((You))))) Cuddling that bear may just be the best thing at times when you are feeling this way.

Tracy said...

((((wanda))))

I wish I could make everything okay for you. I would if I could. In a heart beat. Know though you have friends out there that care. I care.

Raine said...

Going to bed with bear was a great idea!!! Do you have people to talk to when you feel like this? You can add me if you want and if you have IM. My name is Raine sweety and you can find me at wiccette@msn.com or Raine1563@yahoo.com. If you have any of these messangers you can add me and if I am online I will be happy to talk to you when you are feeling bad or even if you arent.

shade said...

My dear sweet friend... Everyone cries... big little all of us do and sometimes if we don't fight the tears they help us...

by relieving the stress of the moment...

Know that you are not alone.. we care about you...

I wish I could make those decisions for you!!!

(((((Hugs)))))

let your faith keep you strong. As Pk... is always saying to me, Let Jesus be your strength, know that he is with you.

And that we are with you.

jumpinginpuddles said...

sending you and your bear hugs

Dreaming again said...

she has MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE she can talk to in person ...live and voice for real ...with a phone by my bed that rings an all ...she could have called me .... whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

if only I'd known (yes, wanda dear, you're being scolded for not calling me. I love you!)