Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Survived

Physical and sexual childhood abuse. Survived
Abusive and unfaithful husband. Survived
Severely mentally ill daughter. Surviving
My own mental illness. Surviving
My youngest son's death. Surviving.

Is there more to life than just surviving? I can't give up. It's not my nature. I am a good person, who a lot of bad things has happened to. I am healing so slowly. Sometimes I wonder what is the grand plan. Day by day is all I can do. To accomplish small tasks. Some days getting out of bed is rough. I want to believe I'll be better someday. Until that time I will continue to love others and give what I can to help others through their own difficult times.

5 comments:

Prayer Girl said...

When you are able to continue to love others and give what you can to help others - then you have the best Rx I know of for making it through your own difficult times.

God bless.

PG

NOS said...

"I am a good person, who a lot of bad things has happened to." Amen. You ARE a good person, Wanda. And I hate it that you have had to deal with such hardships in your life. But you're right-- you're a survivor and you don't give up. Those are invaluable traits. Stay strong.

Wishing you well,
NOS

Sophia said...

Hi Wanda,

I get your question. Considering all that I too have been through (and still go through), I often ask the same question -- is there anything more to life than "surviving"? And there is!! Hang in there. Regardless of the tough and trying times, there is so much beauty in life surrounding us.

For me, I am rediscovering who I am and what I like/don't like. I'm discovering new hobbies that I am really enjoying, etc.

Go for long walks. Get a puppy to snuzzle with every night. THEY will love you unconditionally!!

Hugs and love to you!! :)

Angela said...

You have so much strength! I hope things get better for you. I know that some days getting out of bed is so hard. Hang in there, and have hope. You deserve to heal and be whole. Take care:)

Denise said...

The love and encouragement you give away, will bring about your own healing precious one. Love and prayers to you.