Sunday, August 09, 2009

Losses

I'm suppose to be doing a "loss graft" of my life for my therapist.It is to show how life events had a negative effect on me. Before my first birthday my father left. My mom had another child with another man, who was killed while drunk by a train at the age of three. Then come the real problems. At four my new step dad started molesting me. How many losses is that? The molestations, rapes and beatings lasted until I left at 16. I feared for my life from this man. How do you graft that? That's only the first 16 years.

4 comments:

Just Be Real said...

I have never heard the term "loss graft." Dear one, I am so very sorry for your abuse.

((((Wanda))))

NOS said...

I'm terribly sorry, Wanda. No one should have to go through what you have gone through. But I admire your incredible strength for surviving. Seriously.

As for your question-- I wish I had an answer. That's not to say it's impossible to recover from, but I am just bereft of answers. But what I do know is that people do eventually feel better. And I'm confident that you will join their ranks someday soon.

Wishing you well (as always),
NOS

Lily Strange said...

Oh jeez. That would be so hard. I can only imagine how tough it is for you.
{{{{{{{{{{{{{safe hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Tracy said...

So far you have done a good job at grafting those areas. I am so sorry Wanda that they are even areas you have in your life. Sending you hugs my blogger friend.