Sunday, October 08, 2006

Something is Not Right


My friends are commenting on how I'm "just not acting like myself". They say that "something is wrong with me." I know I've been a little depressed and am trying to do all the right things, but apparently it's not working. I feel so tired, but some how unsettled at the same time. There is not much I want to do. I don't know if it's my medication or the situation I'm in. People that don't even know me real well are asking "What's a matter with her?" I don't feel much right now. Not happy, not sad. I just feel "not connected." I'm trying not to stress over not knowing what is going to happen. Maybe I'm just not connected to life right now. I thought I was to hyper and couldn't settle down, but everyone is saying I'm "Just not here." I must say I sick of all the medications that they have tired for the bi-polar disorder. I don't even know what I'm doing that has others concerned. Maybe I'm isolating a little, but I didn't think it was that bad. How can people be worried about me and I not know what is wrong?

10 comments:

wolfbaby said...

Hugs wanda... give yourself time to adjust!!!... sometimes we all just need time to adjust to change.. it is hard especially when you were with your job for so very long!!! My thoughts are with you.

Raine said...

oh thats easy- they are worried cause they dont know exactly whats wrong either (((((((Wanda))))))

Jade said...

Wanda,
You've had quite a "life change" in the past few weeks. Its probably going to take some time to adjust and find some new interests. Dont let it discourage you. Keep that chin up, and if you need friends to talk to we are all only a blog entry away. ((((wanda))))

Jade said...

Wanda,
You've had quite a "life change" in the past few weeks. Its probably going to take some time to adjust and find some new interests. Dont let it discourage you. Keep that chin up, and if you need friends to talk to we are all only a blog entry away. ((((wanda))))

jumpinginpuddles said...

people are seeing your disconnectedness thats what they cant put their finger on id say from what you just descibed you are numb.

cheesemeister said...

You're probably kind of "at sea" without the job you'd had for so long. As long as you don't completely isolate yourself or start thinking of harming yourself, I'm sure you will come out ok.

Wanda's Wings said...

Wolf
I guess I have time. I don't know what to expect either.

Raine;
Thanks I not used to having people worry about me,

Jade:
I guess I just need to take the time to adjust and not worry so much.

JIP;
I believe you are right, that so much has gone on I'm kind of numb.

mysti said...

(((Wanda))) I think people tend to not know how to deal with illness. You do have friends on here who will listen. Please try not to be so hard on yourself. Baby yourself hun. Take care of you.

Dr. Deborah Serani said...

Maybe they are not at the same place that YOu are at. Give them time to adjust. Change makes everyone feel wobbly.

Wanda's Wings said...

mysti:
Thanks maybe I need to just pamper myself right now.

Dr Deb:
never thought that all my changes would upset others. Good point. Thank you