Sunday, October 08, 2006
Something is Not Right
My friends are commenting on how I'm "just not acting like myself". They say that "something is wrong with me." I know I've been a little depressed and am trying to do all the right things, but apparently it's not working. I feel so tired, but some how unsettled at the same time. There is not much I want to do. I don't know if it's my medication or the situation I'm in. People that don't even know me real well are asking "What's a matter with her?" I don't feel much right now. Not happy, not sad. I just feel "not connected." I'm trying not to stress over not knowing what is going to happen. Maybe I'm just not connected to life right now. I thought I was to hyper and couldn't settle down, but everyone is saying I'm "Just not here." I must say I sick of all the medications that they have tired for the bi-polar disorder. I don't even know what I'm doing that has others concerned. Maybe I'm isolating a little, but I didn't think it was that bad. How can people be worried about me and I not know what is wrong?