Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Child Inside


I don't know why, but the child inside me seems to need something right now. My painting are of this child, that seems alone and hurt. I don't remember much of my childhood. It was deleted as a bad file. Why now would I find this child wanting to be comforted? The abuse is over. It is ancient history. Nothing can change the past. So why now do I feel this child is crying out? I feel the pain and hurt. I can not change what has happen. I can not make it go away. It was long ago blocked out of my mind, but now is pushing to get out. To be made know. Will feeling this again cause healing? She was young and helpless. We are not now. Why is the pain and hurt still so great? How can I help? Does the pain end for the child? Can I help this young small little one?

8 comments:

wolfbaby said...

I so very much wish i had an answer or some thoughts for you but i don't... hugs

mysti said...

I am also trying to find an answer for that question. In fact in class we are dealing with this topic. I will let you know if I ever do have that answer. :) Hugs my friend, please know others care, and are keeping you in their prayers.

survivor said...

Maybe you're feeling it now because you're strong enough to process it? Hang in there... I'm walking beside you

Fallen Angels said...

mabez herz wan telz yuz bowt it so herz don bez skarz no morz

Raine said...

sounds to me as if Janie had a good answer there. So I'll agree with Janie of fallen angels and add that there must still be some healing to do......

Wanda's Wings said...

Wolfbaby:
Thanks for caring

Mysti:
Sounds like you are attending a great class. Thanks for the prayers.

Survivor:
You could be right. I have more time to process things now, so maybe now is the time.

Fallen Angels:
Thank you sweetie, you might be right. Fear is a terrible thing.

Raine:
I thought I was finished healing, but I guess there is more layers than I thought. Thanks for the support.

Jade said...

I think sometimes the pain just creeps up for recognition. I think most of the time we try hard to block it out, or not think about it so that we can continue with "normal lives" so... ever once and a while I think a wall lowers almost forcing us to acknowledge our pasts. I know it hurts, but hopefully you're able to stay in the present. Acknowledge the emotions, but dont fall into them if you can help it. ((((((((hope this passes soon))))))))

cheesemeister said...

The need for comfort never dies even though the memories are no longer there. May you find comfort for your inner child and for you!