Monday, May 09, 2011

Walls


I find safety in the walls I have built to protect myself.  The problem is the walls keep me from experiencing life. I shut myself away to keep from being harmed, but it limits myself to feeling love. Real love is something that always seems right outside my reach. I desperately need it , but am afraid that I will be hurt. Some people in my life looked beyond my walls of protection and reached inside to love me. The only unconditional love I  believe I have felt was for my children. I have some wonderful friends that except me with all my flaws. yet I fully don't trust that I will not be hurt. Abuse has caused me to build these walls.  Only love can tear them down so I won't be afraid to feel again.

5 comments:

Just me said...

Huge hugs x x x

Tony White said...

I find that a most poignant comment

Tony

Chatty Crone said...

One brick at a time...

NOS said...

I can relate so much to this post. When I was in high school I experienced a mass exodus of all of my friends and that HURT A LOT. So now I rarely let anyone past my walls because I never want to experience that hurt again.

But you're right-- love can tear the walls down. And please know that you are loved.

Wishing you well,
NOS

Faycin A Croud said...

I have come to realize that I will never be able to take down my wall. Too many people have screwed me over too many times. But I try to not completely close myself off. It's a hard balance and in the long run I'm probably not very good at it.