Wednesday, May 26, 2010
I am really struggling right now. I can't sleep because of the horrible nightmares. My past is in my face all night and the terrible hole in my heart from missing my son in the day time. I am feeling weak and like I'm not going to make it. I'm having physical symptoms form the sexual abuse. I'm just curling up in a ball at night with the pain. I have no relieve in the day because all I can do is think of Chris. God has got to help me or I'm going to loose my mind. The two worst things in my life are haunting me and I'm not sure how much more I can take. I am so tormented. I need some peace.