Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Terrible Times

I am really struggling right now. I can't sleep because of the horrible nightmares. My past is in my face all night and the terrible hole in my heart from missing my son in the day time. I am feeling weak and like I'm not going to make it. I'm having physical symptoms form the sexual abuse. I'm just curling up in a ball at night with the pain. I have no relieve in the day because all I can do is think of Chris. God has got to help me or I'm going to loose my mind. The two worst things in my life are haunting me and I'm not sure how much more I can take. I am so tormented. I need some peace.

11 comments:

Mike Golch said...

{{{{{WANDA}}}}} {{{{{BIG TIME BEAR HUG}}}}} HANG IN THERE KIDDO.

Just Be Real said...

Wanda praying for peace for you dear one. ((((Wanda))))

Ethereal Highway said...

I'm so sorry, Wanda. I know what the abuse stuff at night is like, but I can scarcely imagine the loss of Chris and I know that it must be horrible. I am so, so sorry. I wish I could come hug you in person.

Andrea said...

Praying GOD will penetrate through the darkness and torment and heal your heart....praying HE will lift you and carry you to the a place of safety and peace.
BIG HUGS and lots of PRAYERS,
andrea

NOS said...

Wanda, I am so sorry you are hurting so much right now. Is there anything I can do? I don't know if this helps, but sometimes I like to keep the phrase "gam zeh ya'avor" (or in English, "this too shall pass") in mind. I am hopeful that your pain will pass. In fact I know it will. But please hang on in the meantime and lean on the people who care about you (even if they are in the blogosphere). You're wonderful.

Wishing you well,
NOS

Just Be Real said...

Wanda dear I know you took off your 'sign lang.' video I am only responding because I did see it before you took it off, and because I was involved in the Deaf Ministry at my church way back in the late 1980's. I used to sign for the songs as well. I even took my ASL interpretation/translation test (which I failed by two points on the ASL side). You sign beautifully and your expression is wonderful! Blessings.

Sandee said...

Mike sent me over. Get some help honey. Get some help. Today. Big hug. :)

mago said...

Oh dear ...

Catherine said...

Thinking of you dear one, hope you can find some peace and rest.

Love, Catherine

IK said...

I'm sorry you are going through so much pain Wanda! Take care! *hugs* <3

Colleen said...

Hugs and prayers. Wishing you peace.