Monday, May 17, 2010
My therapist tells me I am angry about my son death and this is part of the grieving process. I guess she is right. So much was left yet to do. At 27 years old he was just beginning to live. His anxiety disorder was starting to improve. When I think about it I realize that I am angry at the hospital. I do not feel he got the care he needed. I am angry at the doctors. They did not keep me informed. I do not believe they were as aggressive with his treatment as the should have been. My therapist believe I am angry at God. I believe in a God that heal the sick. Why didn't You heal Chris? Why did You let him die? Time and admitting my feelings will help me get through the grieving process. I'm taking a grieving class to help me deal with all these emotions. I still believe in God, but my faith has been shaken.