Tuesday, September 08, 2009

Flashback


*******Possible triggering*******

I still can not see the face of my stepfather. I feel the restraints on my limbs as I am held tightly down. The smell of alcohol and tobacco are strong. There is pain in my vaginal area and burning as he penetrates me. He is so strong and I am so small. He makes moaning noises as he continues to relieve himself. When he is finished he tells me "little girls who tell stories disappear and are never seen again." I hurt and cry all alone. I feel dirty and unclean. I want to die, yet live.

8 comments:

Ethereal Highway said...

{{{{{{Wanda}}}}}}

Lily Strange said...

I'm so sorry.

Andrea said...

I am soooo sorry. Sending prayers for GOD's healing and restoration emotionally, spiritually, and physically.
andrea

IK said...

I'm sorry you had to go through that. That was very brave to post. You never deserved such treatment. *hugs*

RCUBEs said...

Praying for God's healing and strength to cover you. God bless.

Prayer Girl said...

I guess I shouldn't say this, but I'm saying it anyway - MAY HE ROT IN HELL FOR ALL ETERNITY.

And on top of that, MAY ANGELS HOLD YOU CLOSE ALWAYS HERE ON EARTH AND IN THAT SOMEDAY FUTURE MAY YOU REST IN HEAVEN FOR ETERNITY.

I love you and pray for you,
PG

Just Be Real said...

Dear one I understand.
Sitting with you.
((((Wanda))))

NOS said...

Wanda, I'm terribly sorry you had to live through that experience but I am so glad you have survived. I know the recovery from trauma is a long and difficult haul, but I believe you are strong enough to get through anything.

Sending you love and well-wishes,
NOS