Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Anxiety

I'm having anxiety today about my lost of income. I still can get calls to come in and work, but I do not have any guarantees. I already stress every month over making it. I'm also very nervous about working at different places. I am trying to relax and believe this is for my own good, but I am having trouble with that. With my new medicines I have tremors that are worst when I am stressed, so I am very concerned. I wonder if this is a test of my faith. "All things work together for the good of them that love Him." Maybe this will build back some of the confidence I have lost over the last couple years. Right now I'm still in the anxiety mode.

9 comments:

Wonderingsoul said...

((((Wanda))))
It sounds very difficult and very uncertain at the moment. I hear your panic and also your hope that this will somehow bring about change.
Anxiety is very hard to live with when it reaches a certain level.
Thinking of you and praying you can hang in there.
X

Dreaming again said...

it's a part of life, not a test of your faith ...remember the Bible says that God doesn't test us ... he comforts, sheilds, protects and above all ... loves ..but he does not test us (he knows, that when it comes down to it ...we'd fail, because HE made us ...)

He has no reason to test the heart of a child he loves.

hang in there with your faith ...remember how desperate King David got (you've not murdered anyone of late that I know about ...so you're a step ahead of him!)

I love you Miss Wanda .. I'm praying for you. I miss you too!

RCUBEs said...

May the Lord provide for your finances. I will lift that up in prayer. God bless.

Just Be Real said...

(((Wanda)))
Sorry about your fears....
I understand and sit with you dear one.

sarah said...

I don't do well with change so I get what you're going through. I'm praying for you. Sarah

NOS said...

I'm sorry, Wanda. Wouldn't life be easier if money didn't exist? At least you have your faith to turn to as a coping mechanism-- distraction always helps me. Do you knit? Turning the TV on and knitting a scarf can be very therapeutic.

Sending you well-wishes,
NOS

Marj aka Thriver said...

Oh, I'm so sorry. Your last two posts sound like some really rough stuff to handle. I'm wishing you some lighter days.

IK said...

I'm sorry you have such difficulties and stress in your life. It all can certainly be draining. Take care of yourself! <3

Lily Strange said...

I really relate to this, though my schedule is set at work. I never know how I'm going to make it through the month. Being marginalized is beyond teh suck.