Thursday, June 05, 2008

Child Within

My child with in is hurting badly right now and needs to say some things. I usually don't let her talk, but she helped me when thing where so bad when I was a child and she need to speak now. I have PTSD and Bipolar both are very real and affect my life daily. She holds hidden memories that I'm not strong enough to face. She is my friend.
Hi, my name is Wendy(shuffle feet).The nice doctor wasn't nice. He played a joke on us. He said he care,but did not. He was like daddy. He makes me cry inside. Wanda doesn't believe it. I know he was not nice. I wish Wanda would listen to me. I can tell when some one is going to hurt you . I want to have fun to but you can not trust big men. THEY HURT YOU


Lynn said...

Yes, some of them DO hurt people, Wendy. I have a child who tells about things like what you are saying and I believe both of you. I have PTSD, too. I know that little girls do NOT go around making up stories about such things. I also know that they are afraid to tell people things because they worry about those who will be angry with them, or hurt them, or accuse them of lying. Wanda and I will do our best to listen to you girls as often as we can. Please be patient with us as we try our best to listen while taking care of everyday life, too. We are new at *really* listening. We want to take good care of ourselves and of you. We want very much to keep everyone safe and well cared for.

Mary said...

Hi Wanda, I know what you mean, I am trying to come to terms with my "inner child" I suffer from severe depression, and of late am having a real hard time of it...Check out my blog and go to the second page first, I have written some poems. Mary

A- Truckers- Wife said...

:( sounds like you are going through SO much in your life right now.Just know that God is with you..and people who love you are praying for you, and it is good to let it all out. It's hard sometimes but it feels better when you get things all out in the open..good or bad... God bless

Tracy said...

WAnda, and Wendy (((Hugs))) I am so sorry you have been so hurt. Know you are in my thoughts and prayers.


jumpinginpuddles said...

dear wendy,
do you want to talk about how the doctor played a trick and hurt you, because we believe you, we have many little ones sitting inside and they too tell the truth and often say us bigs arent listening.
But sometimes what they have to say takes us a while to understand rather than not believe.
Thankyou for writing here

Raine said...

(((((Wendy))))))) I'm sorry that happened to you

Anonymous said...

Hi,I saw that you welcomed a new blogger as I did as well.I was just before you onHopelsl's site.

You are definately not alone with the PTSD and Being Bipolar.I have that as well the PTSD was at the hands of my father a long time ago.
The bipolar has been with me quite a long time as well.
we are kindred spirits,I'm adding you to my blog roll on my word press site. since you allow me to sign in as my word press site just click my name.I think you have shared a powerful story.I may revisit my on my site as is in the archives on the site as well as my blogger site.

keepers said...

Dear Wanda and Wendy

That was so nice of Wanda to let Wendy say what she has to say so she can be heard. Each of you deserves to be heard and to be treated nicely with no tricks! We sincerely pray things will get better for each of you asap

peace and blessings


Wanda's Wings said...

Thank everyone for being so kind to Wendy.

Dreaming again said...

I am so angry with him right now. I almost posted on my blog about it. I came so close ... so very close.

I don't want to drag L into it. I'm afraid she would.

I'm so very very angry with him.

I can't believe I tried to defend him ..that I believed he was innocent, a victim of seduction when he was predetor.

I'm angry ...