Sunday, June 29, 2008


I'm falling apart right now. I'm having frequent flashbacks, feeling of wanting to harm myself and I can't stop crying. I'm in physical pain.My support system has collapsed.Oh God I wish this would just stop. I see my doctor on the 3rd. I hope I can hold on that long. If I would call the clinic tonight they would send the police to have me admitted and I can't afford that.I am going to find a safe place and hold my teddy bear until these feelings pass.


Lily Strange said...

The teddy bear is way better than the police!
I hope you come through this soon. I'm sorry you're having this much difficulty right now.
(I don't know if I pointed this out before--my memory sucks. Lily and Cheesemeister are one and the same!)

Jade said...

:-( Wanda I'm so sorry to hear that you're having such a tough time. A good squeeze of a teddy bear has helped me on MANY occasions. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Please let me know if theres anything I can do to help during this tough time.

Tracy said...

I am saying a prayer for you right now Wanda. One that God will give you the strength, and comfort you are needing. (((Wanda)))

:( I wish things were not so hard for you. Know you will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

Mary said...

Hold that teddie bear hard and just wait it out till u see your therapist. I can relate so much to your post. I am feeling the same way and dont know what to do either. We can help each other by just being here for each other..hang in there as I am..hugss Mary

Deb said...

Take care. Be well. And if necessary, reach out and talk to a friend or safe family member. What about a local hotline outreach center to just talk so you are not alone. Just a thought.

Anonymous said...

Wanda my dear friend,we are all here for you.we all care about you.
Do not ever be ashamed to call for help when needed eve in it means being admitted some where.I have had to use this option from time to time as well.
ther is a great deal of music to listen to that is up beat. You Tube has a vast amount of videos on it that are enjouable. Me I tend to turn to my Hammered dulicmer music to help me.One the wordpress site of mine in the video side bar I have a bunch of music videos that you are welcomed to come and listen to.
When you are squeezing that Teddy Bear just think of it squeezing you back,if you do that you will feel the hugs I send you.
I have been accused of being a big teddy bear at times.
That's my story and I'm sticking to it.