Thursday, September 07, 2006

Elusion of Control


I think it is safe to say I have been a "control freak" for the last several years of my life. I have tried to control everything. Recent health issues have caused me to realize that it has been just an "elusion of control" . I still believe in planning and putting forth your best effort, but some things are beyond our control. It was never in my wildest dream that I would need to apply for disability. Once again I have had to revaluate what is improtant in life. It's not the money, job, or accomplishments in our lives, that make life worth while. It's the people and relationships we have. I honestly do not know where I would be today without my faith in God and the love and support of friends and family. We can lose "things" at the drop of a hat, but true friendship and love endures. I am so thankful that the last year has showed me what the real important things are. I also find peace in knowing even when things are not in my control that God never loses control.

9 comments:

mysti said...

I learned the same thing when I came down with fibromyalgia and my bleeding disorder. One does not have control over health issues. I found leaning on God does help. I also think it does make one more thankful for the positive in ones life, like love, and true friends. When one is sick, it opens up ones eyes to the true things in life. (((Wandan)))

Dr. Deborah Serani said...

I know that trying to control things just made me even more anxious and worried all the time. As I realized that I could only control so much something happened. I felt free. I hope that can happen for you too.

Dreaming again said...

hey, I love ya!!!

Your little buddy has a broken hand!!!

marja said...

Sometimes the toughest thing is to let go and to let God look after things. When I decided to give God a try,after not believing in Him, giving up control and trusting was one of the toughest things I had to do.

But isn't it wonderful, when we need help, to know there is Someone taking care of us? And the funny thing is, the more we trust, the stronger we become.

wolfbaby said...

Amen

Raine said...

As long as I have a roof over my head and food to eat and I know my loved are healthy and happy- nothing else matters. Its all small stuff and will take care of itself as its meant to be.

jumpinginpuddles said...

is a control freak but sometimes thats important to

Sa'de

Wanda's Wings said...

Mysti,
Sickness really does make you see what is important in life.

Dr Deb,
You are so right that we can not control everything. I just begining to learn this, so I hoping I will "get it" soon.

(((Dreaming again)))
Give BJ a hug for me too.

Marja,
It has been hard for me to let God take control. I think HE might be able to do a better job than me!

Wolf Baby;
I know what you mean!

Raine,
You are so right. We need to see what is really important.

Sa'de,
Control in the right places is a good thing. I just tend to over do it!

keepers said...

important realizations sometimes are the hardest to accept, we must as life goes on reevaluate our priorities, looks like you have your ducks in a row! peace and blessings

keepers