Monday, October 24, 2011

Old Tapes

I find writing or blogging an excellent way to cope with stress. Sometime when things are really bad I have a hard time doing anything. Currently I am really trying to change the old tapes in my head. That can be so hard.
My old tapes say:
  1. I'm stupid
  2. I'm fat
  3. Nobody could love you
  4. You deserve every bad thing that happens
  5. You deserve to be hurt or abused
Over time these tapes have played in my head since I was a child. It hard for me to think that even God could love me. How am I working on changing these tapes?
  1. Therapy
  2. Bible study
  3. Working on my eating plan
  4. Being around positive people
  5. Blogging about my feeling
  6. Encouraging others
If I can help one other person realize that they are special then I have been a success.  I am determined to be more than my past abuse. I will overcome. I will love and be loved.


Mike Golch said...

I got a few of those uglyu tapes in my head as well.both my parents installed those tapes.I have since forgiven them and that has helped me.

Chatty Crone said...

Every time you think negative - you need to tell yourself 28 times the opposite. You need to break those habits girl - you are worthy - God does not make junk! sandie

Colleen said...

Those tapes are sooo hard to erase! But I am working on them too. Hugs.

RCUBEs said...

It's true what you wrote. Blogging with the intention to encourage others turn out to be that I am always the first one encouraged because of Him. May His strength always be yours.

Anonymous said...

The new tape could be:

I am me.
I am able to do things.
I survived a lot of shit: I am strong!
I am God's child and deserve to be loved.

Just an idea.

Faycin A Croud said...

My response to the "I'm fat" one has become "so what?" It is this society that equates fat with ugly. That's just perception. Hell, I thought I was hideous when I weighed half what I do now. If I can't love myself at this size getting thin is not going to suddenly make me love myself.
It is the multi-billion dollar DIE-T industry which teaches us that we are worthless unless we are thin. And we can never be thin enough. I say they can go suck eggs.