Saturday, April 29, 2006

What up today?

I hate it when the docs are trying adjust my meds! It's early and I'm already had two panic attacks. I just want to be "normal" (what ever that is.) Why are these emotions swinging from one end to the other? I keep pushing myself, trying to be like everyone else only to find I am "different." Somedays I can "set the world on fire". Today I don't even want to go to the store. What is up with me volunteering for so much stuff? NO is not a hard word to say. Every two year old knows how to say no. How has it escaped my vocabulary?? My "to do" list is long today, so maybe I better start it. I just had to blow off some steam.


Dreaming again said...

Blowing off steam is good.

Saying no is a good thing ..sometimes. Don't forget, you said no for too many years, so you need to figure out (oh dear, forgive me for using a very dirty word here) BALANCE to your no's and yes'

Also we need to figure out is it overwhelming you because it's too much or because of the med change.

Remember, are deeply loved.
And ..incredibly brave. You're volunteering for something I'm not even going to *grin* (yes, dear, you can smack me now, just not on the shoulder, but no telling you know who)

I'm here, cellphone sitting right in front of me!

jumpinginpuddles said...

hope you get the things donme you need to in the day

Dr. Deborah Serani said...

It is so hard when meds are being adjusted, I agree. I hope that technology will not only give us greater insight into the body, but that it will help create better, more personalized medications. We are all so uniquely different.
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