In Loving Memory

Today has been two years since I lost my beloved son. I wanted to honor him today by sharing how special he was. As a young boy he was full of mischief. He loved to clown around and make people smile. He always had a beautiful smile that would light up the room. His big brown eyes sparkled with mischief. He loved baseball and Nolan Ryan was his hero. As he grew older he loved Karate. He was excelled and achieved many trophies. As he continued to grow his love for computers became his life. He build computers, tested soft ware for a major company, and was an enthusiastic gamer. He was not only my son, but he was my friend. I miss him so. I believe he is in heaven now and some how I think he is still working with computers even today. He is now my guardian angle.

Got Out Of Bed

I was finally able to get out of bed, if only for a short period of time. Depression can be so debilitating.I worked on my taxes today and it took all I had in me to concentrate enough to do them. At least it was a step forward from where I have been.

My therapist wanted me to google the word hope. I did this and realized how much I need some hope in my life. When you are depressed you can not see or hope for a better tomorrow. I am really trying, but I think some of this is biochemical. At least I made a small step in the right direction today. One step at a time is all I can ask.

Which Is Worse?

Sometimes I don't know which is worse. Manic or depressed? Since I am so incredibly depressed right now I wish I could have just a touch of mania. Getting out of bed is difficult. I am seeing my psychiatrist weekly right now and he is trying to adjust my medication. This is a very short post,just to let everyone know I am still OK.

Four Letter Word

Diet is a four letter word. It seem no mater what you call it, you are still hungry. I guess meal plan is the latest term, or change of life style. It is still hard.

It's warm again today and I am not sorry that it is no longer below freezing. I need my weather to be mild all year long. I guess I'm living in the wrong place.lol

I'm struggling right now. It is hard to keep up with anything. I really hate depression. It should be a four letter word, because it is the pits! I want to thank all the loving support I get. I really means a lot to me. There is always something to be thankful for. Have a great weekend.

Officially Here!

I guess winter is officially here. Last night we had our first snow. Less than an inch, but the wind chills are in the teens. The funny thing is that by the weekend it going to be in the fifties to sixties  again!

I had to go to the doctor today and of all things I've got an ear infection. I got an antibiotic shot and steroid shot. She said I should feel better in a couple of days.

Why are New Year resolutions so hard to keep? I guess it just one of those things. Oh well, just one day at a time is what we have to do.

Insurance

Why do you always have to fight insurance to get needed medical care?????

What A Six Days

I have been so sick the last six days, but it has finally pasted.Finally I can eat something besides chicken noodle soup and jello.Again I am thankful for all the people that brought 7up & chicken noodle soup!

 The sun is shining and it a bright sun shinny day.. A little nippy but very mild for January! Alice is also starting to get around a little better on her leg. All in all I can not complain. I will try and make my rounds to the blogs later today.