Saturday, May 12, 2007

Mother's Day

As I pulled in my garage I thought of closing the door and letting the car run until I feel into a deep sleep. Why? Thinking about Mother's Day. Everyone having happy thoughts about love and kindness. Mother's Day brings other memories to our mind. Sadness, Betrayal, and Pain. I know it just a day, but I hate it. My own failures are in my face. Love? Yes for my children it is unconditional. Are we so damaged that we harm those we love most. Mother WHY??? Was I not good enough? Was I too ugly? Why did you have us? "A wasted F...K" you said. Will those words ever go away? How could you have given us like an offering to unspeakable abuse. Yes our dad. The only day we hate more than Mother's Day is Father's Day. Strong enough to make it one more time. Must try. Must try. OH God why are some chidren born for abuse? WHY?? Where is the justice? Must be strong to prevent hurt to my children. So much pain! So much pain! IT's just a day to remember.

7 comments:

jumpinginpuddles said...

just know it passes somehow it does stay safe wanda plaease

wolfbaby said...

Hugs wanda...

many hugs...

it's almost over.

Raine said...

This day will pass Wanda. I'm sorry its so very painful for you. Just hang on a little longer and it will pass. (((Wanda))))

Dr. Deb said...

I have written about mother's day and how it is not always a HAPPY day of celebration. In my line of work, I see pain more than I see pleasure regarding this and Father's Day. Read here:

http://drdeborahserani.blogspot.com/2006/05/mothers-day-easy-or-queasy.html


Thinking of you,
Deb

Dreaming again said...

Wanda ... I know you don't like what happens when you say help to Dr. M and his friend. But you have to get help and get help NOW!

keepers said...

hi Wanda

there are a lot of us who try to get through the "special days" and it is never easy, hang on and keep on keeping on, we can all make it through, together

keepers

Cheesemeister said...

I know there are a lot of people who have these same feelings surrounding these days. I always have the most trouble with the Xmas season because everything is supposed to be so perfect and it never is. Also spring when everything is supposed to be happy-happy-joy-joy and I feel anything but. I'm sorry you must endure such bad memories. Some people are very cruel, and often they become parents.